Yes, I'm going through that stage once again.. I think it's pretty much a stage I go through constantly.. and it'll be something I go through until I finally find him..
I'm told that I don't actually want to fall in love because then I have to actually deal with that guy... the person is always more of a problem than what it's worth.. people tell me that I should just be in love with love...
I don't think so..
To me, that's no fun... then you have no one to cuddle with...
or to kiss..
And, no, that's not fun at all..
I miss those kisses..
The ones that you share with that one special person. Sure, I've kissed my fair share of guys that have meant nothing to me. Those kisses that you share with a guy that you go on a date with because you have nothing else to do on a Saturday night. But, I don't like those kisses. I want that KISS. The one that means something. That sends shivers through out your body.. that makes your heard swarm... that makes your lips tingle when you finally pull away..
Those kisses that when you do pull away, you smile, and you gently touch your lips with your finger tips.. wishing for more.. and more ... and more..
You just can't share that with some guy off the street.. Some guy that you go out w/on a Saturday night...
No, you share those kisses with someone you love.. and, damn, I want to fall in love..
I miss holding hands with someone.. not just the hand holding that you cup hands with someone.. I'm talking where you link fingers with one another... there's just something about that.. and when a guy gently rubs your fingers with his finger tips...
Ahhh.. beautiful stuff.. simply beautiful..
I don't know.. but maybe I have a warped sence of love.. but to me, this is what I want when I'm in love.. the kisses and hand holding... I'm just so damn childish sometimes..
I want the laughter.. the convo's.. the cuddling... the everything that comes w/relationships...
But, there's something oh so special to me when it comes to kissing and hand holding... you just can't be all touchy-feely if you don't have some kinda interest of love..
I don't know..
As I said, I could have some kind of warped sence of love..
who knows! or, I'm just living in a fantasy world.. who knows! whatever the case maybe.. I like it..
And you know what, try it out sometime.. it's a nice feeling when the guy you love cups your face in his hands and kisses you on the lips... gently, but perefectly... and when he's done, you smile... touch your lips, totally giddy and out of some kind of control.. because when you're in love, you have no control.. esp over your emotions.. and then, he takes your hand.. links his fingers in yours... it's a great moment..
Don't know about you, but I sure love the moment..