.. I swear, I'm thinking about just washing my hands clean of guys for a while.. not dealing with wanting to desperately be in a relationship.. not wanting to deal with the shit that comes with being in a relationship: the wondering, worrying.. blah blah friggin blahh..
I hear my friends, and they tell me the shit they go through with boyfriends.. damn, I don't want that. No siree bob! Right now, I think I want to be single.. enjoy flirtations.. the freedom of that.. and when I feel like cuddling, I'll just invite Josh L. over.. and he'll cuddle with me. No damn strings attached damnit!
.. I mean, come on! He's.. well, you know! Let's just say cuddling with me is like cuddling with a teddy bear in his eyes.. no attraction.. plus, I'm a girl.. for some reason, he doesn't like me like that! ;)
So, I don't have to worry about having someone to cuddle with.. I do have that worry about someone to makeout with.. someone that really means it when they kiss me.. I don't want some random guy to make out with.. because, I don't like that feeling.. it's not, hmm.. romantic enough in my eyes.. So, that's a problem.. but I'm not thinking about that shit..
.. because, it's shit to me right now..
I'm feeling very "I hate guys" right now.. along with a lot of my friends. I mean, yes, I was very much into a guy there for a while.. but damn, I lost interest..
.. I wanna say so much more about "HIM", and why right now I don't even feel like I want to be with him right now.. that I'm lacking an interest in him..
... yet, when I see him, the lack is not there anymore. But, there are times when I do seem him that I just get soo friggin irked my him.. because I'M NOT FUCKING WITH HIM!
..Damn, I tried not to swear. I did!
You know what I want? I want new PJ's. And some ice cream.. (ahh! I hate him for that.. i can't even get ice cream without thinking about him.. but, I'll see him! I'm hopeless.. absolutely hopeless.. because I don't hate him.. I still adore him like mad crazy..) I just want to sit back, and I want to watch movies.. (Monsters Inc Comes out TUESDAY!!!!!!!!)
.. Return to Me
.. Moulin Rouge
.. Simply Irrestible
.. Austin Powers 2
.. Corky Ramono
Those are the movies I want to watch. Some, yes, are girl flicks. Where she gets the guy.. yada yada blah blah.. cutsy shit.. but whatever! The last two, oh my! Makes me laugh my ass off! Good shit! And Moulin Rouge? Yes.. that just makes me cry because it's fucking sad, and I want to cry..
Hmm.. maybe I'll do that. I have 3 out of the five movies, so I'm thinking I might rent the other two tomorrow.. and watch them all day Monday night.. and be sad. Depressed.
Well, I shall go now. Need to read some of my business book. I'll talk to you guys later..
PS. I totally forgot to tell ya'll that this is my 100th entry. Goooo Mary.. Goo Meee! ;) Lalalalalala.. *singing* 100th Entry!! *singing*