And, to be truthfully honest, this fourth of July was totally better then last year.
I had one moment during the fireworks where I wished to be in his arms...
...I looked up at the bursts of color and I felt like I was in his arms.. remembered holding his hand and him telling me to keep the shrapnel of the firework forever...
But, guys, it was over in one very quick moment. And, as I looked around, I realized I was making new memories and new moments with great people...
...Eric, Jason, Elle, Tori, Libbers, Lar, Justin, Trish, Will...
I saw smiling, laughter...
I saw my friends, my family.
I made my memories on the fourth of July for the year 2002 that I'll aways look back on that will make me smile. That will make me giggle.. laugh.. that will make me realize that I spent it with exactly the people I wanted to spend it with.
So, yes, I did think of him for one moment in time... I knew I would. It was a given. But... as I said in my previous entry...
I just watched the fireworks..
with friends..
and family...
In all, I had an amazing Fourth of July. I can actually say that it was even better then last years. Sure, I was wrapped up in the arms of someone that I really liked the year before. And, yes, I was holding hands with a special someone last year. But, there was something even more magical about this years. I guess the love of family and friends is far more powerful then the love of some guy who really was just a summer fling... someone who made promises that he claimed he wasn't going to break, but did anyway...
I guess mom was right..
Guys will come and go, but you friends and family will always be there to dry your tears away when they do leave...