I really love you missy.. always will.. never would that change, my wowie friend.. just remember that..
.. well, SAT's went pretty good.. could have gotten better scores, but you know what? That's life.. I was worried over nothing.. I waited till the last minute, like I always do.. geezzz, imagine that one..
.. not only that, but for the past four years, i've been pretty much told by everyone with a few execptions, that I wouldn't be going to college.. isn't that just wonderful?
"Geez, Mary, you won't go to college.. you never go to school, anyways... why would you go to college?"
.. hmm .. it's not like I wasn't sick or anything..
Does anyone realize that I did four years of highschool in 3 and a half? yes, I did.. I took a semester off of school because I was sick.. very very sick that I couldn't even get up in the mornings to go to school.. so, I decided to just do all those 11 grade classes in my senior year.. yes, i doubled up.. doubled up, guys!! So, when most of the seniors were slacking it off with about five electives, I was working my ass off to make sure I'd pass and graduate with my class..
.. and you know what? I did.. and I got the hope scholarship... so, yes, I did graduate.. and I am going to college..
I didn't take my SAT's while attending school because I was told I wouldn't go to college.. so, why even bother, right? So, I didn't get the scores I wanted, but what can you do..
I regret only a few things in my life.. but that's better then regretting it all..
Soo.. I'm not going to focus on that..
School for everyone else starts tomorrow.. I went with my sister and her kids school shopping.. it's a nice feeling not to have to go through that bother anymore.. for god sakes I could go to class in my pj's..
.. geez, it's a thought.. ;)
Hmm.. I'm thinking about staying away from some people.. well, a certain someone.. I was thinking, yes, after what he did, I'm going to be so uncomfortable around him, and you know what? I know it's not my fault, but I can't change the fact that what he did makes me feel like shit.. and totally embarrassed..
.. his actions were misleading.. what he said were also misleading.. and what he has done leads me to believe that he's stringing us along.. but, whatever... I've tried to say something, and no one listens to the immature 19 year old, right?
yea.. that's what I thought..
.. and pretty much, that's what they all think of me as.. the immature 19 year old.. that sucks major donkey balls.. there are times where I have been more mature then all of them combined.. I have chosen paths that have made me look far more mature.. but, just because I'm actually 19 makes them think otherwise.. oh well. I just figure staying away from them for a long while will make them wonder..
I do that.. I hang out with just one group.. I don't allow myself to hang out with anyone else, and that is a problem I have to overcome.. but, you know what? the group I'm with get's pissed when I do hang out with others.. that's always the case..
.. for example, I had decided I would do something with a friend of mine.. well, this group I'm hanging with now actually was upset that I didn't go with them to hang out.. yes.. tell me that's just a bit pathetic.. I have other friends..
and I end up missing them.. or, I get sick of the group of friends I'm constantly hanging with..
Ahh.. I can never win..
Well... i'm off to listen to more music so I can wallow in my misery .. and read some poetry..
tho, soon.. I'll be a bit more happy.. ;)
.. can't imagine why.. ;)
bye!