.. and lately, it's been sprinkling.. and sometimes pouring rain.. and all I want to do, is just call up that certain someone and say that... but I don't have a certain someone to do that with.. I just want to walk hand-in-hand with him, and laugh... talk.. and sometimes, not even say a word, just take it all in... enjoy each others company..
Really, I've been wasting this rain.. I haven't had anyone to walk in the rain with.. sure, I have friends, but it's not nearly as fun.. not nearly as beautifully romantic..
... and I know for a fact that once the cold weather hits, I'm going to be hating it mad crazy.. I like having someone I can hug and kiss and cuddle with on those cold winter nights.. a tall, skinny band guy w/nerd glasses would be nice.. but I won't complain if he's lacking a few of those qualities..
.. hmm.. I don't know. I'm just.. whatever. Feeling this sudden rush of lonliness.. like I want to be with someone. Even sometimes I like to have a guy around.. to say 'yea.. i'm with him..' or to walk around walmart with him NOT even having to hold his hand JUST knowing he's mine... I don't know.. sometimes, i don't like to be single..
*sigh*
I don't know.. I see my friends, and they get to be all cutsey.. and as much as I say I hate how people are like that sometimes I want to be like that.. I want to be all cutsey.. with the names.. and the calling him to leave him msgs on his phone sometimes.. or, I don't know!!
I just want to be in love.. and not in LUST guys!! Sometimes, people confuse this.. L-O-V-E!!!!
There is a MAJOR difference here..
and I want the real deal.. and I want to feel what love is.. and for how long? I don't know.. maybe for the long haul... who knows!!
But right now, I just want to feel special.. by someone who's special to me..