I'm in love.. *sigh* Am I getting a little dreamy-eyed a bit.. ??? I think I am... ahh.. just a bit..
I'm sure you are all wondering who this new interest is.. I was once totally in love with Brandon Boyd of Incubus.. he was the one I could see myself enjoy moonlight walks on the beach.. late night talks till the sun came up... museum visits.. cuddling in coffee shops.. and, definitely him writing me songs, about me, of course..
But, I'm in love with.. yes, the lead singer of Our Lady Peace, Raine Maida..
Ahh.. I'm addicted to their video "Somewhere Out There"... God damn, that boy is hot... Shit!!!! With that black shirt and those pants... Ahhhh.. those pants... *sigh* those pants... I can't get them out of my mind... and that shirt!!!!!
Yes, I'm a dork.. I have admitted this! In my profile.. If you'd like, please go there .. wait.. I think I said I love dorks.. I don't know if I actually said I was a dork... Okie.. i take that back...
I will declare it HERE...
My name is Mary, and I'm a dork, and I'm in love with Raine Maida..
Soo.. I've moved on from Brandon Boyd.. I know he's beautiful with the hair.. he has great hair.. but damn! I can't get over Mr. Maida..
Okie.. new subject.. I'm getting a bit obsessive here.. *laughs*
I have SATS tomorrow.. I'm not stressing nearly as much as I was a week ago.. I'm prepared as much as I will be mentally for it..
I have what I need for it for it as well..
Gum, pencils, 33 dollars and calculator.. all I need in SAT life.. *laughs*
I'm just gonna go in there tomorrow and kick some SAT ass..
Okie, I lied.. I'm freaking out.. I'm stressing out.. I'm sitting here, and it just hit me.. I think I need to focus on a totally new subject..
The beach was incredible today.. pretty damn amazing.. I was able to just relax.. sit back and relax... I didn't think about the SATs.. college... anything at all that's been stressing me out at all... I think the beach really was the thing I needed before tomorrow..
.. tho, I'll be honest, a nice cuddling session would've been incredible.. esp on the beach.. as the sun was setting..
... Okie, here I got again, wishing my life away to another person.. a pain in the ass guy who will just make my life miserable...
.. bitter you ask? yes, I am.. my sister and her hubby are having marital problems.. a lot of my friends are having marital/relationship problems, and right now, I don't know what to think about guys/relationships.. it's a major change from what I had been wishing days ago... for love, huh? yes, I am well aware.. But, with what I've seen happen in the last couple of days to two people that I thought would last for a lifetime.. yea.. I don't know..
Craziness, really..
I want to fall in love, don't get me wrong.. one day, but right now.. I'm seeing so much of a whirlwind of heartbreak and hurt...
Hmm.. tho, if Mr. Maida showed up at my door, I think my bitterness would end in minutes.. what do you think? *laughs*
Well, I think I shall go... write laters, I'm sure...