I have to make out with someone.
I was telling this to Lisa, and I made her laugh her ass off. I didn't make her pee, tho, but... she laughed, and to me, that's all that matters. :D
I'm thinking, tho, that it's just an excuse for me to make out. That's just me, tho...
What do you think? Hmm.. I don't know..
It's moments like this what I wish Tony was around... I really enjoyed kissing him... he had incredible lips... I liked when he would spend the nights here, and we would stay up all night cuddled up in each others arms... eventually, I'd fall asleep in his arms, completely safe and secure... I always felt safe and secure in his arms for some reason... I liked waking up and finding him there... I would find myself saying, 'he's mine...' At that time, that was something I hadn't said in a very long time.. I do have moments when I miss him...
But, then he does something to hurt me...
*sigh*
And, here I go, talking about the past.. well, since I'm on the subject. I haven't talked to him in a while. I've left three msgs on his machine and I even asked Greggie to have him call me. He hasn't yet, tho. It's moments like this that makes me realize why I don't miss him.. He's changed a lot.. he's not the same Tony I once fell in love with.. I knew Florida would do that, tho. Wow.. here I am, being psychic once again..
There are moments, tho, when I'm lying in bed at night, that I think about when we shared our first kiss... and that's when I realize I miss him.. but, when I think about how he acted when he was being an ass on the phone or the fact he hasn't called in over--wow, I can't remember--a long time makes me not miss him...
I mean, he hasn't even called to tell me he's sorry for the loss of my grams or congrats on my graduation. yea, what a supportive friend..
everyday I find that I'm missing him less..
*sigh*
I think I need to move on..
I had a wonderful day today. I went to five points in jax w/ Elle, Justin, Johanna, Trish, Jason, Shannon, and Kevin. It was so much fun. They have incredibly cute stores (a gay store called Rainbows and Stars) and coffee shops. I loved it, really. I just liked how they had all these vintage shops with kick ass furniture and punk/emo clothes. Elle got this cute shirt that, right now, I can't tell you what it said, but it's perfect for her. I'll write it in here when I do. I really had a wonderful day today. We also went to European Street, and enjoyed an interesting dinner. We talked about everyones sex lives, or the lack of some of their sex lives, esp mine **v-card still entact here** hehehe... We had all gone to this Pagan *sorry if I spelled this wrong guys* shop where Shannon had gotten this book on Wicca. Comes to find out that since I'm an aqarius, my catch phrase is "I know", I'm peverse, rebelious, and, *I think* unpredictable. If that last one is incorrect, and you know, please help me here. I was TRYING to inform them that was WRONG, but.. I started to realize, it was completely right..
I am perverse!! *laughs*
Me? Virginal ears? *laughs*
Yes!
Hehehe.. it's true.. I have a dirty mind!
Ok, new subject!!!
Going to see Windtalkers sometime this week with Jeremy. He's a sweeeet guy! I have this tendancy to treat him like shit because.. hmmm.. I don't know why.. I'm just a bitch.. but, I apologized, and we decided that we would go see Windtalkers. I think it'll be fun... hehe.. Who knows!
Maybe we'll make out, and my lips will no longer be chapped! *laughs*
Ahhh!!! By the way, Justin is making me a burned Cd! :0) Hehehee.. with boxcar racer, more get up kids, sophie b hawkins, marel bambrige, three doors down, dean martin, and more. I'm sooo excited!!!