.. I like it.
It's just so pretty.. and black!! I love it! I was missing my whole favorite color being on my diary. Sure, I liked the layout I had previously. It was rather beautiful. But, damn, I missed having black in my layout. Some of you may not have remembered my layout before, but it had a black background with a little girl floating on a cloud.. it was cute.
Okee, that's enough about that.
It was extremely breezy today, tho, it was horribly hot. It would've been perfect if there was just a nip in the air. Nippy enough to wear a sweater..
.. but, of course, that won't happen for quite some time. I don't even get excited about that until the beginning of November, honestly.
Now that, my dears, is pathetic.
I read diaries, and I see that a lot of my fellow writers are already enjoying beautiful fall weather.. I must admit, I'm jealous. Oh yes, very jealous.
*sigh* I guess I just have to suck it up and deal with it.
Oh my goodness. I have got to see My Big Fat Greek Wedding. That movie looks sooo damn cute!!! I was watching Opera today, and I saw a few previews on her show. That movie looks absolutely wonderful. I can assure you that it won't be playing in Saint Marys, so if anything, one will have to make a trip to Jax or wait until it comes out in about six months.
.. I don't know if I want to wait that long, tho. So, maybe I'll see if Elle wants to go see it. Make it a day with Elle or something. :)
It's amazing, but every night, around 11ish, I get this idea in my head that I'm going to call Tony. Yes, I know, I know what you're asking. Why, Mary, Why!?
.. well, I'll tell you.
I just want to know what's going on in his life. It's been a few months since we last chatted, and I'm just curious as to how he's doing. I can honestly say that the feelings I have for him are non-existant.
.. Some are thinking to themselves right now, "Yea.. whatever mary. You are not over him.."
But, guys. I think I am. The reason I believe this?
.. well, everytime I hear that one song.. yellow by coldplay, my heart doesn't hurt. I don't get that ache anymore. I smile. I know that's a weird concept. But I smile because I think of all the great times we shared. all the memories we did make. I don't think of all the times and memories that could've or could be shared.. no, not anymore. I know it's over between us. I just had to give myself time.
Now, when I call him or vice versa, I don't dream or wish of being with him.. I just think, "yea, this is tony. a friend.." And to me, that's a step towards moving on.
*wooot* go me! :)
I don't know about you guys, but I'm a bit proud of myself!
So, yes, I'd like to catch up with the boy, or catch him up on all the gossip he's probably behind on. :)
I think I need to put something on starupabove. I have really been slacking with that one. Might just do some kinda slack survey for you guys. :) Ahh.. at least keep it updated, right!?
.. I want my f*ing Cd's. the fact that it's been about a month or so is pissing me off. I really really really want them.
Maybe if he only had two of my cd's I don't think it would bother me so bad. But the fact that he has two *one of which is my baby* is bugging me!!
Ahhhh well..
Daria lastnight was probably the most hilarious episode ever. I have never laughed so hard in my life. *sigh* I am soo glad that I have Noggin *even tho it is a channell filled with teenagy shows, like Degrassi. Now, I have watched JUST the commercials for that show, and I know all about their love lifes on that show.. ahh pathetic..* But yes, just getting noggin for Daria has been well worth all the love filled teenagy crap.. *laughs*
.. well, I think I will go now. This diary entry has been basically about..
.. hmm..
Nothing and everything all at the very exact same time..
amazing huh!? I sure thought so! :)