.. yesterday, I had planned on inviting her out to go shopping with me before she was taking her kids roller-skating.. maybe after that get some lunch or what not.. but, she had other plans.. hang out with Justin and Johanna.. no suprise, right? I was a bit upset, but she had to come over and get Tori.. My mom told her that I was upset, and of course, she was all apologetic.. saying that she was sooo sorry..
Well, she suggested that we go out to lunch, so that we could talk.. and I thought that would probably be a good idea because we really need to talk.. she needs to know that I'm hurt.. that I feel like I'm slowly losing her friendship.. I also suggested that maybe we could go to the mall today..
.. soo.. I called her lastnight before I went to bed, and she had confirmed that we would go out to lunch still, but she said she would run it by Lar about going to the mall.. she wanted to make sure she knew where the kids would be.. which was completely fine.. but, before she hung up, I wanted to talk to her about some stuff that had been bothering me about life in general, but she had company.. she once again was too fucking busy to listen to me.. this seems to be the case all the time.. I listen to her shit all the time, but when I need someone, she's never there.. She told me she would call me later, but she never did..
.. so, I figured, she would call me in the morning about going to lunch.. When I woke up, there was a msg, but it wasn't from elle, someone for mom.. I just thought that maybe she would eventually call.. I don't know.. I just sat around.. eventually, mom wanted to know where she was, so, she called Justin, but no answer, then she called Eric, and he confirmed that they had gone to the fucking beach..
.. the fucking beach.. Justin, perhaps Johanna and Trish, and Elle had gone to the beach..
I guess our plans for lunch was cancelled..
.. and now, I feel like just telling her to fuck off.. because once again, when I feel like our relationship is going down the tubes she had decided to fuck our plans up again.. she did this before.. we had plans for lunch, and we were going to talk about things, but she invited Johanna along..
Soo.. oh well.. what the fuck ever.. I just feel like crying my eyes out.. Actually, I don't even have the tears, because I cried them out earlier.. and I called her, but there's no answer.. and I won't fucking call Justin's house.. no fucking way.. I hate that asshole with all my being..
.. so, does this mean she has chosen her friends over her family? yea, they'll fuck her over and she'll come crying back to me.. but, I don't know if I'll take her back..
Whatever..
I'm gone..