I think, tho, I'm going to go to the UPS place in town... hmm.. maybe even Mail and More... package up alllll of the problems that aren't MINE... and send them back to all of these people with a note...
"Here.. these seem to be yours.. not mine.. They seem to be here with me for some odd reason... I don't want them anymore.. unless you want to just give me your car.. or money, I don't want anymore of your shit... But, if you don't, then here's your problems back because right now, I have my own to deal with.. like getting a job.. going to college and getting a car!!! So, enjoy having these on your shoulders because lately I seem to be carrying them for you. Enjoy! Bon Appetite!"
I am scared shitless. It's time one should know how I really feel about all of this, I'm scared out of my ever fucking mind. I'm scared to go to college. I really am. To me, it's bigger then high school. It's not like going from being the head honcho in eighth grade to nothing in ninth... no no no no no! Nothing like that at all. Man, I'm going into the fucking real world now baby! And yes, that scares the shit out of me! Joe tried to tell me it's nothing to worry about, but yes, that scares me. It really does. Nothing can take that away from me.
And on top of being scared, I have to worry about all the problems of friends and family. I don't want that anymore. Every day, I have a new worry in the world.
Ahhh.. I don't want that anymore..
Or, I have someone else who feels that Mary is the best person to talk to about something... the best listener.. well, god damn.. what the fuck am I doing to make them think that... ??? Because whatever I'm doing... I'm STOPPING RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!
There's a few people who I don't mind actually talking to, and YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!! :)
Well.. I think I'm going to go now.. I need to go.. just to think.. maybe I need to UPS someone my problems.. randomly send someone Mary's problems.. just some radom dumbass who has nothing else to do..
Nahh..
I'll just deal with it myself.. just like I'm doing now.. dealing with my stuff, as well as 18 million other peoples SHIT!!