Life seems to be getting worse.. I don't know if it's possible, but I do believe a friend of mine just made me feel like complete shit tonight.. He's a particular guy...

Ooh, yes, it's never a girl.. never can a girl make you feel the shit that a guy can make you feel.. no way jose.. that's what guys are here for.. a few exceptions of course! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE GUYS!!!

And, I'm sure some of you might even know who this guy is... well, he surely made me feel like shit tonight, and guess what? I'm not sticking around to feel like shit ever again.. you wanna know the worst part? I'm not even dating the dude.. I hate when guys who don't really even mean much to you can make you feel just as bad as a guy who has meant the world to you in the past, you know?

.. it's craziness ..

But you know what? I just have to deal with it.. basically understand that's life..

.. and you know what? Life's a bitch..

*big sigh*

... I feel like all sorts of stupid-ass naiveness.. I feel like I'm fifteen all over again.. you know? not seeing guys for what they really are? What they really are worth.. I mean, I've always taken pride in the fact that I could see when guys weren't real.. that they were being fake.. or they were ass holes.. or what not..

I don't know..

well.. I think I'm gonna end this quick.. bad storm, and I'd hate to lose all this writing... bye for now.. might write more..

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mary. 19 y/o. georgia. enjoys kissing. the rain. cold weather. sweaters. daria. monsters inc. being with friends. listening to music. the ataris. benji and joel from good charlotte. writing. the stars. holding his hand. johnny knoxville. sleeping in his arms.

RIGHT NOW
Time: 11:28 p.m.
Date: 2002-08-06
Listening: dashboard confessional
Talking to: rolland
Wearing: jeans, black sweater
Feeling: all sorts of wonderful..