.. honestly, I'm thinking that right now that person means the world to me.. no possibilites there.. he's already very special to me.. he might not know this.. but I do care for him..
.. and whenever he's ready, I'll be ready, because I like him that much..
Ahh.. today has been an interesting day..
Tony called me.. every time I talk about him.. no matter the case.. if I'm dissing him.. talking about old times with the dumb fuck.. he calls me the VERY FUCKING NEXT DAY! I swear, we have a cosmic connection..
.. have I told you lately that I hate that we have this connection... ?
Well.. now you know..
Soo.. he called.. I wasn't home.. thank goodness because most likely I would've gushed over.. yes, I would've..
.. I always fucking do w/that dumb fuck.. I don't know why..
Soo.. mom told him that I was mad at him for the way he hurt me.. the way he treated me on the phone the last time we talked..
.. he didn't remember.. yes, leave it to the idiot to forget..
.. ahh.. thank goodness he was a good kisser because he lacked a lot upstairs.. sure, we had a lot to talk about.. we could talk about everything and anything for hours on end.. but, as I just said.. we talked about EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING.. meaning.. NOTHING!!
.. he was a good kisser..
But, yes, he called.. he's suppost to be calling around.. hmmm.. an hour ago...
Yea.. he's not calling.. but that's fine with me.. if he never calls I won't be upset about that.. I just want him out of my life..
This is his way of keeping me hanging.. making sure that I'm always his.. maybe not labeled as his g/f.. but as his in some way.. emotionally linked to him.. sure, he'll go out and have the time of his life.. won't return my calls, emails, whatever.. he won't call me for months on end.. but, suddenly, when I'm doing just fine, a bit over him and moving on to new guys.. he calls.. allowing him to make sure that I'm still his.. emotionally linked to him..
Yea.. I'm sick of that shit..
.. it's funny, but when I heard he called today, I just wanted to come home and call him back and say ".. yea, I'm sick of this.. you don't call for months.. and then, I get a phone call.. well, you know what.. don't bother anymore.. I'm moving on.. how does that feel?? Like shit, huh? yea.. well, that's how I feel when you don't call for months and months on end.. now, I'm just sick of it.. kinda over it.. bye.."
Pretty good, huh?
Yea.. would never happen.. I'm just that much of a pussy.. I can never actually come out and say it..
Hmm.. maybe when he actually calls me when he says he will, I might say it..
.. who knows..
I seriously doubt it..
Listening to I'll Catch You by the Get Up Kids..
.. yea.. that's something you just don't listen to when you're trying to be a good patient girl.. *laughs*
I'm going now..
*sigh*